Sunday, September 16, 2007
I did promise to post a follow-up...
These pictures were taken inside Mr Kasshiki's private residence, a very well-appointed chamber which he stocks with a number of reliable pieces of bondage furniture. It's notable that the frame rate here is near-perfect, and I didn't crash once the whole time I was inside.
Once again, there was no touching - Mr Kasshiki watched with a quiet pride in his achievements, appreciating my poses. Jordyn was the soul of demure submission, remaining quiet and subservient throughout. A bad connection tested (and is likely to continue to test) their patience, but neither of them expressed any desire to discontinue the tour.
Mr Kasshiki is... a fascinating man. It came as little surprise to me to find that he had a D/s lifestyle outside SL, but it was interesting to learn that he ran a D/s sanctuary in RL. He seems far more interested in the spiritual and mental side of domination, rather than the physical, and he's certainly the first Dominant I've met inside SL to get me to analyse my own desire to submit and obey.
The main reason I wanted to be a bondage model in SL is because it's been a fantasy of mine for a long time - the combination of being ordered, posed, and displayed and being bound and used - and it's not something I feel I could realistically do in my RL. But there's a safety in modelling, as well (at least in SL) - I'm a 'slave' for the duration of the shoot, no longer. If the photographer isn't able to please me, it simply becomes a job of work - I'm not bound to him for longer than necessary. There aren't any risks.
Whispers Of Caged Desires is the first time I've felt the call of a deeper submission - of becoming a true slave, an owned piece of property. Partly, it's the magnetism of Mr Kasshiki. It's rare that I meet a Dominant who I feel truly submissive towards - so rare that it actually shocks me when it happens. I was also very impressed by the conduct of his slave, Jordyn. As you can see, she's very beautiful, but also one of the most well-behaved subs I've ever seen - the opposite of the 'bratty' stereotype that you generally find in the BDSM sims. If I'm allowed, I might just do a special shoot with her in the future!
Anyway, after he showed me his personal quarters, Mr Kasshiki kindly gave me a tour of his Punishment Block - a high-tech jail that he'd built on a sky platform. It was very clear he'd saved the best for last. Unfortunately I didn't get the chance to take as many photos of it as I'd like, so you'll have to make do with this one. I hope I'm not blocking the view too much...
Finally, I had my chance to explore the punishment cell itself. By this time, all the constant bondage and display was having quite an effect on me, as you can imagine. Fortunately, the tour came to an end before I could do or say anything rash...
...but that's just what I intend to do. I'm nervous, but I've made the decision to offer myself as the owned property of Whispers Of Caged Desires. Assuming I pass my interview, I'll be confined to the grounds for the next two weeks, which will restrict modelling opportunities - but I'm confident that this will be the start of a new dimension in submission. As usual, IM Batgirl Infinity any time you want to say hi - and I'll see you soon with some posts from a slave in training...
Friday, September 14, 2007
As I hung upside down in the stringent bondage, caged like a canary, I couldn't help but wonder how I'd managed to get into this situation...
Recently, I've been looking around for new BDSM sims on Second Life, as the spotlight of media attention seems to have shrivelled up old favourites like Heaven And Hell - unless the search engine just isn't finding them anymore. I stumbled on a place called Whispers Of Caged Desires, which according to the advert offers to train slaves and subs.
I've been very curious about being 'trained' recently. What would it involve? How deeply would it affect me? Would I still be 'me' at the end of it... and do I have what it takes to stay the course? As regular readers will know, there's something very erotic to me about the thought of being Mastered, controlled and 'handled' by someone who actually knows what he's doing with me... and to me. But can I really give up all control over myself in the long term?
My curiosity overwhelmed me.
I'm not sure what I was expecting, but when I arrived I was quickly IMed by the owner and builder of Whispers, Mr Henry Kasshiki. He was polite, warm and welcoming - the polar opposite to the standard 'HEY U KNEEL NOW' attitude that a lot of SL Dominants introduce themselves to me with. It was clear he'd had a lot of experience in RL, and he admitted as much later in the conversation. After some chat, he offered to show me around his 'office'...
...where he 'processes' new slaves.
At this point I should admit that he never laid a finger on me - just watched as I took the photos for this post, and chatted in IM with a pair of his slavegirls, including the lovely Jordyn, who I'll mention in greater detail next time. He was the perfect gentleman throughout - at pains to point out that his training is on a deeper level than simply sexual, and that's only one small facet of what submission is. He also made it very clear that this is no game - were I to offer myself, I might not even get past the interview stage.
Obviously, I'm more fascinated than ever. It's been a long, long time since I was this impressed by a Dominant. I'll be taking the weekend off from SL in order to attend to some RL business, but while I'm doing that I'll be thinking about Whispers... and whether I have what it takes to really, truly submit - to actually become what I pretend to be when I model... owned property. Will I take that first step and offer myself completely - to be trained?
I'm shivering a little as I write this.
When I get back, I'll post pictures of how I spent the rest of the afternoon - in some even more stringent and strange poses and situations - and I'll tell you a little more about Mr Kasshiki and the lovely Jordyn. And I'll be telling you my decision.
Until then, if you want me to model for you or make a live appearance, IM Batgirl Infinity. But hurry - who knows if I'll still be allowed to model in the future?